Saturday, 14 March 2020

Teen models, powerful men and private dinners: when Trump hosted Look of the Year

In the early 90s, Donald Trump judged the world’s biggest modelling competition - since hit by allegations of abuse. This is how the people who were there remember it.

Special investigation by Lucy Osborne, Harry Davies and Stephanie Kirchgaessner at The Guardian.

Main image: Donald Trump, then 45, with contestants in the 1991 Look of the Year competition, the year he was a judge

On 1 September 1991, a large private yacht cruised towards the Statue of Liberty. It was a clear, breezy evening, and from the upper deck of the Spirit of New York, a golden sunset could be seen glinting off the Manhattan skyline. Downstairs, a party was in flow. Scores of teenage girls in evening dresses and miniskirts, some as young as 14, danced under disco lights. It could have been a high school prom, were it not for the crowd of older men surrounding them.

As the evening wore on, some of the men – many old enough to be the girls’ fathers, or even grandfathers – joined them on the dancefloor, pressing themselves against the girls. One balding man in a suit wrapped his arms around two young models, leering into a film camera that was documenting the evening: “Can you get some beautiful women around me, please?”

The party aboard the Spirit of New York was one of several events that Donald Trump, then 45, attended with a group of 58 aspiring young models that September. They had travelled from around the world to compete in Elite’s Look of the Year competition, an annual event that had been running since 1983 and was already credited with launching the careers of Cindy Crawford, Helena Christensen and Stephanie Seymour. At stake was a life-changing prize: a $150,000 contract with the world’s then leading modelling agency, Elite Model Management, run by John Casablancas.

Trump was closely involved in Casablancas’s competition. In 1991, he was a headline sponsor, throwing open the Plaza, his lavish, chateau-style hotel overlooking Central Park, transforming it into the main venue and accommodating the young models. He was also one of its 10 judges.

In 1992, Trump hosted the competition again. On a similarly golden evening in early September that year, another group of contestants boarded the Spirit of New York, chartered for another Elite cruise. One of the girls on the boat was Shawna Lee, then a 14-year-old from a small town outside Toronto. She recalls how the contestants were encouraged to parade downstairs, one by one, and dance for Trump, Casablancas and others. Lee, an introverted teenager who loved to draw but hated school, was in New York for the first time. “A woman at the agency was pushing me,” she recalls. “I said to her, ‘I don’t see why me going down the stairs and dancing in front of those two has anything to do with me becoming a model. And she said, ‘No, you look great, take off your blazer and go and do it.’ So I walked down the stairs. I didn’t dance – I blew a kiss at them, spun around and walked away.”

Trump with his then fiancee Marla Maples (left) and a contestant in the 1991 Look of the Year competition.
Contestants wait to board the Spirit of New York yacht in 1992
  • Top: Trump with his then fiancee Marla Maples (left) and a contestant in the 1991 Look of the Year competition

  • Bottom: contestants wait to board the Spirit of New York yacht, September 1992. Photograph: Nina Berman/NOOR

Another contestant, who was 15 at the time, also remembers being asked to walk for Trump, Casablancas and other men on the boat in September 1992. She says an organiser told her that if she refused, she would be excluded from the competition. “I knew in my gut it wasn’t right,” she recalls. “This wasn’t being judged or part of the competition – it was for their entertainment.”

While Elite’s official brochure stated that contestants were aged between 14 and 24, all of those the Guardian has spoken to, competing in both years, were aged between 14 and 19. Some had come to New York with parents or chaperones in tow; others were alone. Many were away from their families for the first time. For them, the stakes were high, and the pressure to impress the judges great. As Casablancas had warned them at the outset of the competition, in a scene recorded by TV cameras: “You are going to be judged, constantly judged.” (In 1991 and 1992, the Elite contest was filmed for a 60-minute glossy television special, featuring interviews and behind-the-scenes footage, and later screened on Fox – an early foray into reality TV.) Casablancas was a powerful figure in the industry, and to many of the new crop of would-be supermodels, this seemed an opportunity too good to miss.

Three decades on, a very different picture of the competition is beginning to emerge. Over the last six months, the Guardian has spoken to several dozen former Look of the Year contestants, as well as industry insiders, and obtained 12 hours of previously unseen, behind-the-scenes footage. The stories we have heard suggest that Casablancas, and some of the men in his orbit, used the contest to engage in sexual relationships with vulnerable young models. Some of these allegations amount to sexual harassment, abuse or exploitation of teenage girls; others are more accurately described as rape.

Naomi Campbell and John Casablancas
Trump with John Casablancas, who ran the competition, at the 1991 Look of the Year awards, at Trump’s Plaza Hotel in New York
Casablancas speaking at a Look of the Year reception in 1991 at the Plaza Hotel, alongside Trump
  • Top left: John Casablancas with Naomi Campbell, who co-presented the 1991 Look of the Year finale. Photograph: Bettina Cirone/The LIFE Images Collection via Getty Images

  • Top right and bottom: Trump with Casablancas, at Trump’s Plaza hotel in New York, venue for the 1991 Look of the Year awards. Photograph: Ron Galella Collection via Getty Images

No such allegations have been levelled against Trump, who at the time was dating Marla Maples, the woman who in 1993 became his second wife. But his close involvement in the contest raises questions for the president. Did he know that Casablancas and others were sleeping with contestants? Why would a man in his 40s, whose main business was real-estate development, want to host a beauty contest for teenage girls?

Journalists have scoured almost every corner of the 45th president’s life, but his friendship with Casablancas, and his involvement in Look of the Year in 1991 and 1992, have been largely overlooked. Yet the competition is more than a footnote in the Donald Trump story. In time, it would prove to be the foundation of his pivot into reality TV. He even married a former Look of the Year contestant: the current first lady, Melania Trump, narrowly missed out on a trip to New York in 1992, after coming second in the Slovenian heat.


When John Casablancas arrived in New York in 1977, aged 35, he quickly caused a stir. Branded “the snatcher” for poaching models from rivals for his Elite Model Management agency, he gained a reputation as a ruthless operator. Handsome and charismatic, the son of a former Balenciaga model and a wealthy Spanish banker, he formed the agency that became Elite in Paris in his late 20s. Within years of setting up shop in New York, Casablancas was generating millions of dollars in revenue each year, and ushering in the era of the supermodel. Glamorous friends flocked to Elite parties in fashionable clubs like Studio 54.

It’s not clear how Casablancas first met Trump but, according to several former models who encountered him during the 1980s, the businessman became a regular at his parties. With the opening of Trump Tower on New York’s Fifth Avenue in 1983, and the acquisition of the Mar-a-Lago resort in Florida in 1985, Trump had gained the reputation of a high-flying playboy in his own right. In 1987 he published The Art Of The Deal, and a flurry of publicity followed. “He sits atop a $3 billion empire,” proclaimed the Washington Post, “and seems to have a Midas touch.”

It was perhaps unsurprising that Trump, a New York celebrity who liked to date beautiful women, should come to know the city’s best-known model agent. “Trump was good with PR and that was something John liked,” says Jeremie Roux, who now runs System, a modelling agency he cofounded with Casablancas in 2009. “Good or negative press was all good to Trump.”

Patty Owen, an Elle and Cosmopolitan cover star, recalls seeing Trump at Elite parties as far back as 1982. “He would always be at the bar. That’s where he would stay and that’s where all the new models would hang out,” she says. “Whenever I saw him, I was always like: why does John have to invite him?” Barbara Pilling, also then an Elite model, told us Trump asked her out for dinner in the summer of 1989 at an industry soiree. She recalls Trump asking how old she was. “I said 17 and he said, ‘That’s just great – you’re not too old, not too young.’”

Stacy Wilkes on the Spirit Of New York, 1991, with that year’s winner, Ingrid Seynhaeve
Shawna Lee (second from right) with other contestants at the 1992 Look of the Year competition
  • Top: Stacy Wilkes on the Spirit of New York in 1991, with that year’s winner, Ingrid Seynhaeve. Photograph: Nina Berman/NOOR

  • Bottom: Shawna Lee (second from right) with other contestants at the 1992 Look of the Year competition

Speaking to the Guardian, four former Elite models say that in the late 80s or early 90s, when they were teenagers, the agency required them to attend private dinners with Trump, Casablancas and sometimes other men. One was Shayna Love, an Australian model who was 16 when she came to New York for the first time in the summer of 1991. Recalling a dinner she attended, she says now: “It was presented as our duty as models at the agency. It wasn’t an invitation. It was like, you have to go and do this.” She says the dinner she attended, at which 10 or 15 models were present, was served at a long table in a private area of an upmarket restaurant. “I was at one end with John, and Trump was up the other end… surrounded by the other girls.”

In the spring of 1991, Trump and Casablancas struck a business deal. Trump would sponsor Look of the Year’s final and host contestants at the Plaza, which would double as the headquarters. At the time, Trump faced significant financial pressures and was close to filing for Chapter 11 bankruptcy, but it didn’t seem to deter him. In the newly unearthed, behind-the-scenes footage of Look of the Year 1991, Trump makes a series of appearances alongside Casablancas, whom he describes as “my friend John”. At one point, Casablancas reveals how he and Trump struck their business partnership. “I had prepared for a long meeting with Donald Trump to explain to him why this was going to be a great success,” Casablancas tells the crowd. “In fact, I hadn’t finished my third sentence and he said: ‘I love the idea. Let’s do it.’”

Trump now disputes being friends with Casablancas. The president’s representatives told the Guardian that he denies it “in the strongest possible terms”. Trump, they said, “hardly knew him, spent very little time with him, and knew very little about him”.


Stacy Wilkes had never been anywhere like the New York Plaza when she arrived at Trump’s hotel with another contestant in September 1991. Then 16, she was living in Louisville, Kentucky, with her mother, who was struggling to make ends meet. The teenager would hold yard sales and mow lawns to make extra cash. “I was just so excited to be in a hotel,” she says. “To go from a poor part of Kentucky to a place like this – I felt like the little kid in Home Alone.” She recalls feeling out of place in a hotel where “everything was gold”.

The teenager had been selected as part of a sprawling international search, overseen by Casablancas, for “new faces”. Many contestants had come through feeder competitions after winning regional heats, or being spotted in malls and hotel lobbies or, in one case, on the beach. Casablancas had visited Wilkes’ local mall to host an Elite scouting event a year earlier, when she was 15. Her local agent had sent her to meet him, telling her what to wear and how to act. She says: “I was told to put my hair down in front of my face and then, like, whoop it around and look up at him.”

One year later, Wilkes was among those met at the airport by a scrum of photographers, and whisked into limousines – a supermodel welcome. “That was kind of neat,” she recalls. The contestants assembled beneath crystal chandeliers at the Plaza to meet Casablancas. He told them they would be judged over several days ahead of a gala evening, when the winner would be crowned. The girls would undergo makeovers and attend photocalls, donning spandex for an exercise routine in front of the Plaza. The behind-the-scenes footage shows Casablancas informing the would-be models that attention would be paid not just to appearance, but to “the way you are, your attitude, your personality, your sense of cooperation”.

from left: John Casablancas, photographer Patrick Demarchelier and Gérald Marie, head of Elite’s Paris office and a 1991 Look of the Year judge.
Donald Trump with contestants in the 1991 Look of the Year competition, the year he was a judge
  • Top, from left: John Casablancas, photographer Patrick Demarchelier and Gérald Marie, head of Elite’s Paris office and a 1991 Look of the Year judge. Photograph: FameFlynet.uk.com

  • Bottom: Donald Trump with contestants in the 1991 Look of the Year competition, the year he was a judge

At 16, Wilkes was one of the older contestants in Look of the Year. The 1992 Fox documentary reported that the average age was 15, and the film’s interviews make the youth of many contestants plain. Standing before the judges for the key swimwear round, the aspiring models are asked to tell the panel about themselves. “I sing and love animals,” says one girl, nervously. Another tells the judges: “I like big dogs and chocolate.” Later, during a photoshoot, a photographer instructs a 15-year-old to show more of her cleavage by pulling her bra lower. “More,” he tells her. “More. More.”

In 1991, there were 10 judges in total, eight of them men, including Trump, Casablancas, the celebrity magician David Copperfield, and the president of Elite’s European division, Gérald Marie. For the swimwear round, judges including Trump and Casablancas sat at a table in one of the Plaza’s palatial rooms, rating the teenage models. “I felt so uncomfortable, standing there in my bathing suit,” recalls Wilkes. She says that at one stage of the contest the judges said she should lose weight: “It felt like they were ganging up on me.”

The contestant who came third in 1991 was Kate Dillon, then 17. Dillon, who went on to become a successful plus-sized model, says that many of her fellow competitors were “from places that were very poor. I came from a family that had means, so it was something fun to do for a week to get out of school – but a lot of these girls were desperate.” She recalls various “after-hours” events over the course of the five-day competition. “It was very clear that there were opportunities to go out and party with Donald,” she says. The contestants were led to believe “that if you were nice to certain people, good things will happen to you, and I think that’s why girls were going out”.

The behind-the-scenes footage seen by the Guardian shows brief snippets of the future president mingling with the Look of the Year models. At an evening reception, he seems to play the role of host, moving regally around the Plaza’s ornate rooms in a suit and tie, talking to VIP guests and contestants. “How’s the Canadian contestants?” he asks, before moving over to a handful of Canadian would-be models and introducing himself. At another point, he circulates on the top deck of the Spirit of New York as the boat prepares to depart. Wearing a billowing cream blazer, pink open-neck shirt and oversized baseball cap, Trump grins while posing for photographs and chatting to several girls. One tells him she is just finishing school.

Some former contestants recall him being there as they got dressed for events. “Every time we changed, it was like Trump would find a reason to come backstage,” Wilkes says. A Canadian contestant from 1992 recalls similar incidents. “He’d come by and say, ‘Hey girls, are we ready?’” she says. “I remember thinking, what have I got myself into?” Trump denies, “in the strongest possible terms”, behaving inappropriately with any Look of the Year contestants. His representatives say he was not aware of any predatory environment at the time.

Others, however, observed a disturbing side to the contest. Ohad Oman, a young reporter for a magazine in Tel Aviv, was sent to cover it in 1991 and 1992. He attended a number of the after-parties, and remembers seeing girls drinking alcohol. He recalls one particularly debauched party, telling the Guardian: “I saw girls sitting on guys’ laps, and I remember one guy putting his hand down a girl’s top. I remember thinking they were younger than me, and I was 17 going on 18.” (The legal drinking age is 21 in the US.)

Others who were present recall underage models being served alcohol at the contest. Trump’s representatives say he did not provide alcohol to contestants, or encourage any models, whether below the drinking age or not, to drink alcohol, stressing he “does not drink alcohol and does not encourage others to do so”.

A still from previously unseen footage of the 1991 Look of the Year finale
  • A still from previously unseen footage of the 1991 Look of the Year finale

The finale of the 1991 competition was a glittering black-tie gala in the Plaza’s ballroom. Casablancas and supermodel Naomi Campbell presented, as 10 finalists went through a series of costume changes, walking across a stage decorated with columns of sunflowers. Trump sat on the front row alongside a roster of celebrities, his nine-year-old daughter Ivanka perched on his knee.

Ingrid Seynhaeve, an 18-year-old from Belgium, was crowned the winner. As the evening drew to a close, Seynhaeve was surrounded by photographers. Guests filtered out of the ballroom as a party got going in another of the Plaza’s grand rooms. In the newly uncovered footage, a man can be heard off-camera, saying: “Come on, babes. Let’s get some liquor in you.”


In the months before and after the contests, Elite sent several of its teenage models to Milan, New York or Paris on assignments, usually by themselves. Shawna Lee, the 14-year-old from Canada who felt pressured to perform on the Spirit of New York in 1992, had spent the previous summer in Paris, working for Elite. She recalls days at castings, and nights out partying, including at the legendary Les Bains Douches nightclub.

After one drunken night at the club, one of the first times she had drunk alcohol, she says a senior executive at Elite offered her a ride home on his motorbike. Gérald Marie, then in his early 40s, was head of Elite’s Paris office, a powerful figure in the fashion industry and a 1991 Look of the Year judge. Lee accepted the offer. “I was like, OK, sure, because I was always relying on whoever to get me home,” she says. But she alleges that, rather than taking her home, Marie brought her to his apartment and told her to come to his bedroom. Lee says she initially refused, asking about his wife. She says Marie responded: “Oh no, just come and sleep in the bed with me, don’t worry,” and she relented. “So I don’t know, I just went.”

Lee says the #MeToo movement has emboldened her to talk about what happened next. It was her first sexual experience. “I just froze,” she says. “I really didn’t know what to do.” Looking back 30 years later, she feels she was taken advantage of. “I just felt really pressured,” she says. “I was really young and I was manipulated.” She told a friend what had happened, and this soon got back to Elite’s agents. “They all knew something went down, but they downplayed it,” says Lee, who is now 42 and works as a makeup artist in Toronto. “It was just understood that it was in my best interest to walk away from it and brush it under the rug.”

Questions about Marie’s alleged mistreatment of teenage models are not new. In 2000, New York magazine reported that two of Elite’s senior women executives had pleaded with both Casablancas and Marie to stop sleeping with underage models, but had been ignored. (“We are men,” Marie reportedly said. “We have our needs.”) In 2011, the Elite supermodel and actor Carré Otis alleged that Marie had repeatedly raped her when she was a 17-year-old model in Paris in the 1980s. Two years ago, another Elite model, Ebba Karlsson, accused Marie of raping her when she was 21.

Marie did not respond to a formal letter from the Guardian, but in a brief phone call insisted he had never sexually assaulted any models, and denied the specific allegations levelled against him by Lee. “It’s absurd, I don’t know this person,” he said. “Allegations like this are becoming too easy to make. Frankly, it hurts.”

Trump with his nine-year-old daughter Ivanka at the competition final in 1991
  • Trump with his nine-year-old daughter Ivanka at the 1991 Look of the Year final. Photograph: Ron Galella Collection via Getty Images

Other men closely involved in Look of the Year during this period have been accused of sexual misconduct by former contestants. Some allegations are contained in legal proceedings filed decades ago; others have been shared for the first time with the Guardian. The newspaper has decided not to publish some of these allegations, at the request of the women involved.

One allegation already made public concerns David Copperfield, an associate of both Casablancas and Trump, who judged Look of the Year in 1988 and 1991, and once dated another Elite supermodel, Claudia Schiffer. Two years ago, as the #MeToo movement reverberated through the entertainment industry, he was the subject of allegations by Brittney Lewis, a 17-year-old contestant in the 1988 Look of the Year, held in Japan. According to her account, published on the entertainment news website The Wrap, Copperfield invited her to a show in California after she had returned home to Utah. Lewis alleged that she saw Copperfield pour something into her glass and then blanked out, but says she retained hazy recollections of him sexually assaulting her in his hotel room. Copperfield stated on Twitter at the time that he had been “falsely accused” in the past, and was now having to “weather another storm”. He added: “Please for everyone’s sake, don’t rush to judgment.” In response to the Guardian’s questions about the alleged assault, his representatives said that the claims were false and seriously defamatory.

Several of the 1991 contestants recall Copperfield behaving in a way that now strikes them as inappropriate. Stacy Wilkes says Copperfield called the hotel room she was sharing with another 15-year-old contestant, inviting the other girl to his room. Another remembers translating a phone call from Copperfield into Spanish so he could invite a teenage contestant to his hotel room. Aimee Bendio, who was a 14-year-old Look of the Year contestant in 1991, says Copperfield and his assistant contacted her at her family home several times after she took part in the contest, “checking in to see how my career was going”. She says the magician invited her to his shows, offering to send a limousine, but she declined.

magician David Copperfield on the Spirit of New York, 1991, the year he was a judge
Copperfield with former girlfriend Claudia Schiffer
  • Top: magician David Copperfield on the Spirit of New York in 1991, the year he was a judge

  • Bottom: Copperfield with former girlfriend Claudia Schiffer. Photograph: Ron Galella Collection via Getty Images

Maya Rubin, a 16-year-old contestant in 1991, says Copperfield approached her on the Spirit of New York. “I told him I’m from Israel,” she recalls. “He said to me that his mum always wanted him to marry a Jewish girl.” Months later, she says, the magician sent her a Christmas card. Copperfield categorically denies behaving inappropriately with any contestants at any time.

In the early 90s, Look of the Year contestants who secured modelling contracts with Elite were introduced to a fledgling financial advisory firm, Star Capital Management. It was run by an associate of Casablancas, David Weil. Housed at Elite’s Manhattan offices, and an official sponsor of Look of the Year, Weil’s company advertised its services in the 1991 competition programme with a photograph of a small girl dressed in adult clothing and jewellery, alongside the marketing line: “Just like you, we’re not just another pretty face.”

By the following year, Star Capital Management was handling millions of dollars earned by Elite’s models. The business soon caught the attention of federal authorities, who later accused Weil and his business partner of stealing at least $1.2m from their clients. In 1998, Weil pleaded guilty to federal fraud charges. He also pleaded guilty to the statutory rape of a 15-year-old model he had met at Look of the Year in 1992.

Weil was sentenced to serve weekends in prison for three months, and required to register as a sex offender for 10 years. Mark Lawless, a New York lawyer who brought a civil fraud case against Star Capital Management on behalf of the 1991 Look of the Year winner Ingrid Seynhaeve and others, says that when he inspected its office, he found an adjoining bedroom. One of the desk’s drawers, he recalls, contained “bullets and condoms”. Weil declined to comment when contacted by the Guardian.

Four years after Weil’s conviction, in 2002, Casablancas faced his own set of accusations in the civil courts. A former Look of the Year contestant, known only as Jane Doe 44, filed a lawsuit accusing him of repeatedly sexually abusing her, beginning when she was 15. The abuse began, according to the lawsuit, at Look of the Year 1988 in Japan, where Casablancas told Doe he was “falling in love” with her. At the end of the competition, the lawsuit states, “contestants drank and partied late into the evening” and Casablancas told the teenager to come to his hotel room. There, Casablancas sexually abused the girl “several times over the evening”. The abuse allegedly continued the following year; when the girl became pregnant, Casablancas told her “she would be having an abortion”. The abortion was allegedly “arranged and paid for” by Elite. Casablancas was 46 at the time.

John Casablancas with his third wife, Aline Wermelinger; they met when she was a 1992 Look of the Year contestant
  • John Casablancas with his third wife, Aline Wermelinger, in 1995; they met when she was a 1992 Look of the Year contestant. Photograph: The LIFE Picture Collection via Getty Images

The lawsuit also alleged that Casablancas “engaged in a pattern of seducing, sexually exploiting and/or abusing minor girls, including girls as young as 14 or 15 years old”. But in 2003, the Los Angeles superior court dismissed the claims against him because he did not live in California, where it had been filed. At the time, a lawyer for Casablancas said the allegations were without merit.

Trump’s representatives have told the Guardian he denies in the strongest possible terms having any knowledge at the time that Casablancas allegedly engaged in sexual relationships with Look of the Year contestants, including those who were under the age of consent, or that Casablancas allegedly enabled others to exploit or abuse teenage models.

But Casablancas’ sexual interest in teenage girls predated this period. His marriage to his second wife, Danish model Jeanette Christiansen, ended in 1983 when it emerged that he was having an affair with a 15-year-old model, Stephanie Seymour. Casablancas, who was in his early 40s at the time, later described Seymour as a “woman-child”. He met his third wife, Brazilian model Aline Wermelinger, in 1992, when she was a Look of the Year contestant staying at Trump’s Plaza. They married the following year; Casablancas was 51 and she was 17.


By his own account, Donald Trump got to know financier Jeffrey Epstein in the late 1980s. “He’s a lot of fun to be with,” Trump famously told New York magazine in 2002. “It is even said that he likes beautiful women as much as I do, and many of them are on the younger side.” After Epstein was charged with the sex trafficking of underage girls last year, the president distanced himself, telling reporters he knew the financier “like everybody in Palm Beach knew him”, but hadn’t spoken to him in 15 years. “I was not a fan of his, that I can tell you,” he said. Trump’s representatives told the Guardian that he had “kicked Mr Epstein out” of Mar-a-Lago for acting inappropriately towards staff.

Photographs of Trump with Epstein, who owned a house near Mar-a-Lago, were widely circulated in the wake of the financier’s arrest last year. Renewed attention was also given to a deposition by Virginia Roberts Giuffre, who said she was first approached by Epstein’s friend, the British socialite Ghislaine Maxwell, while working as a spa attendant at Mar-a-Lago in 1999.

It also appears that Epstein had a Casablancas connection during the 1990s. According to a lawsuit filed in the US three months ago, in 1990 Casablancas sent a teenage model for her first “casting call” at a residential address on New York’s Upper East Side, to meet a “photographer” who, it turned out, was Epstein. The lawsuit states that Epstein ordered the 15-year-old girl to undress before taking photographs of her, pushing her against a wall and sexually assaulting her.

George Houraney, a businessman whose American Dream Calendar Girls beauty contest had been running in Las Vegas casinos since 1978, recalls encountering Epstein at Mar-a-Lago in January 1993. Houraney says that Trump asked him to organise a party that month with some of his pageant’s finalists, promising to invite heads of modelling agencies and prospective sponsors for his competition. “He had me fly in all these girls, and gave me a $30,000 budget for airfares and limos to pick them up at the airport,” he says. “The girls were all decked out, expecting to meet all these VIPs.” But after an hour at the party, Houraney says, there seemed to be only one other guest: Epstein. “I was like, ‘Donald, where are the guys? What’s going on here?’ And he said, ‘Well, this is it.’” Houraney says he realised “this is a Jeff Epstein party, basically”.

While suspicious of Epstein, Houraney was keen to have Trump as a business partner. A month earlier, in December 1992, Trump had met with Houraney and Jill Harth, who ran the pageant together. They were looking for a new sponsor for their contest, which each year saw models aged 16 to 22 compete to appear in wall calendars wearing bikinis and swimsuits while posing with classic cars. At dinner in the Plaza’s Oak Room, Harth, Houraney and Trump discussed moving the American Dream competition from Las Vegas to one of Trump’s casinos. “He wanted to build this into the biggest, the best thing that he could do. He was talking about television and pulling out all the contacts,” Harth later said. Eventually, the pageant was held at Trump Castle in Atlantic City in November 1993, but for one year only.

The partnership soured and ended in two lawsuits, but for Trump it was a prelude to a series of more lucrative ventures in the beauty business. In 1996, he secured what the New York Daily News described as “his most beautiful deal yet”. After months of negotiations, Trump acquired the Miss Universe Organization in a reported $10m deal that handed him control of three large, well-established pageants: Miss Universe, Miss USA, and Miss Teen USA. Three years later, he founded Trump Model Management, poaching many staff from Elite.

For Wolfgang Schwarz, a veteran model agent in Austria who worked closely with Casablancas, and met Trump at the Plaza in the early 90s, Trump’s decision to establish his own agency was about him wanting his own private source for models. “If you have your own agency and you’re the owner, you can tell your bookers to make a party,” Schwarz says. “It’s easier than calling 15 agencies in New York.” Trump’s representatives say he entered the modelling industry because it was a “very profitable” business opportunity.

Kate Dillon, in footage from the 1991 contest
Casablancas with 1992 Look of the Year winner Mariann Molski, then 14
  • Top: Kate Dillon, in behind-the-scenes footage from the 1991 contest

  • Bottom: Casablancas with 1992 Look of the Year winner Mariann Molski, then 14. Photograph: Everett Collection/Alamy

The Miss Universe deal allowed Trump to realise his ambition of turning a pageant into an international televised event. In 1997, he sold a 50% stake in the business to CBS. Five years later, amid a slump in the Miss Universe ratings, Trump brokered a deal with NBC that led to the launch of The Apprentice in 2004.

The move into reality TV positioned Trump as a heavyweight tycoon with a significant media profile. In many ways, it was a natural progression from his involvement in beauty contests and pageants. Where once he had judged young models, whose hopes, rivalries and insecurities became TV storylines in Fox’s Look of the Year documentary, now he was ruthlessly separating aspiring business people into winners and losers.


Three decades on from the contests at Trump’s Plaza, it is striking to reflect on the diverging fortunes of those who attended. Many of the powerful men Casablancas brought on board to help judge the girls thrived in the years that followed. Gérald Marie is now the chairman of a prestigious model agency in Paris, Oui Management. Although Marie told the Guardian he had retired, his LinkedIn page lists his responsibilities at the “thriving newcomer” agency as scouting for and managing talent. Oui Management did not respond to our request for comment. David Copperfield remains a prominent entertainer, with a current residency at the MGM Grand resort in Las Vegas.

The fortunes of the teenagers who took part have been mixed. Some became successful models, Hollywood actors and TV hosts, while many more lived quieter lives. Ingrid Seynhaeve, the 1991 winner, became a face of Ralph Lauren and Dior, hosted Belgium’s Topmodel TV show, and continues to front high-profile campaigns. Other contestants we spoke to include a beautician, a stay–at–home mother, a makeup artist, a yoga teacher and a bus driver.

In 1992, the crown went to one of Look of the Year’s youngest contenders: 14-year-old Mariann Molski. Months after her victory, a profile in the Chicago Tribune reported that the sporty high school student was “on the brink of a career of a kind that most young women only dream about”. While she had some success as a model, it is not clear what happened to her in the years that followed; US public records indicate multiple arrests for probation violations, alcohol offences and prostitution, though there is nothing to say she was ever charged. Molski’s current whereabouts are unknown, but she is believed to have been homeless in Arizona.

After years of financial mismanagement, Elite was forced into bankruptcy in 2004. The Elite brand continues to be used by two separate agencies, owned by different corporate entities. One is Creative World Management, which bought the New York division in 2004. It strongly distances itself from the Casablancas-owned firm and era, saying it “utterly” condemns the kinds of “deplorable behaviour” alleged to have taken place in the past.

The other inheritor of the brand is Elite World Group, which operates the successor to Look of the Year, a similar global contest for the next top young model, called Elite Model Look. It, too, distances itself from the Casablancas era. “We would have no tolerance for the conduct you’ve described,” the company told the Guardian. “Empowering our models and protecting their safety is our foremost priority.”

Donald Trump with contestants in 1991’s Elite Look of the Year, the year he was a judge
Donald Trump, then 45, with contestants in the 1991 Elite Look of the Year contest, the year he was a judge.
  • Donald Trump with contestants in 1991’s Elite Look of the Year

John Casablancas retired in Brazil in the early 2000s. He died in Rio de Janeiro in 2013, aged 70, long before the #MeToo movement heralded a new standard of accountability for powerful men accused of exploiting women and girls. He never got to see his old associate Donald Trump ascend to the White House, despite a cascade of allegations about Trump’s own treatment of women. There are now at least 25 sexual misconduct allegations against the president, ranging from unwanted advances and harassment to serious sexual assaults. More than half relate to models or pageant contestants. Trump denies that he has ever behaved in a predatory or inappropriate fashion with any women or girls.

Speaking to the Guardian 30 years on, several former Look of the Year contestants feel that a #MeToo moment for the modelling world is long overdue. “The girls are young and they look at these agents like parental figures, and they’re not,” says Shawna Lee. “Anything they say goes, whether it’s ‘Go cut your hair’, ‘Go wear this dress’. It’s too bad that there were not more consequences for these men.”

After Look of the Year 1991, Stacy Wilkes returned to Louisville and quit school, despite having told the judges she would finish. “I thought that was the reason I lost,” she says, “so I might as well leave if I want to make it as a model. We were really broke, so I thought I’d try and make money for my mom, but it didn’t work out.” She is content with the path her life took, living in Louisville with her partner and three cats, but adds that women were raising concerns at the time and were ignored: “I think models from the 90s tried so hard, over and over, and nobody believed what we had to say.”

Kate Dillon, now a businesswoman living in Seattle, remembers the contest as one that “exploited women’s assets, women’s bodies. A lot of these girls were desperate. They thought modelling was about attracting men, which it isn’t.” There was a climate of opportunism, she says. “There’s no doubt that the men were like, ‘Yes, Look of the Year week, let’s make sure my schedule is clear to have chicks over to my apartment.’

“What’s great is that we now have a language, and a precedent of young people saying: ‘No, I’m not going to let this continue’,” Dillon adds. “They would never accept being treated the way I was.”

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Newspaper headlines: 'Life on hold' as PM 'U-turns' on mass gatherings

Daily Telegraph 14 March
Image captionThe Daily Telegraph declares that "everything [is] on hold" in a banner at the top of its front page. It leads on the prime minister's decision to "ban major events" from next week, and adds that ministers will "discuss closing schools" for an extra week either side of the Easter holiday.
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Image captionThe i agrees that the new measures amount to putting "life on hold". It reports that companies will be asked to introduce "much more widespread working from home" to ease pressure on public services.
Guardian March 14
Image captionLike the Daily Telegraph, the Guardian views banning mass gatherings as a "U-turn" from the prime minister. The paper calls the move a "cautious approach" after "the most dramatic day of the crisis so far".
Financial Times 14 March
Image captionThe Financial Times says the decision - part of emergency legislation to be tabled next week - comes "amid growing pressure to step up the UK's response", and that Whitehall officials believe it could "free up" emergency services. It quotes a Whitehall official saying there are plans to stop "various types of public event… beginning next week".
Daily Mail 14 March
Image captionThe Daily Mail warns that hospitals "could stop treating the most severely ill" people with coronavirus in favour of those with "better survival chances". It says doctors have referred to wards as "war zones" and includes the "banning" of mass gatherings in its purple "latest shock bulletin".
The Times March 14
Image captionA photograph of a Tube passenger wearing a gas mask is plastered over the front page of the Times. The paper leads on the other implications of "emergency laws" to tackle the virus, which would see police able to "detain infected people" and schools being "forced to stay open". It reports that the laws "will stay in place for two years".
Daily Express 14 March
Image captionAmid the doom and gloom, the Daily Express suggests that there is light at the end of the tunnel - declaring on its front page that British scientists are "on the brink" of developing a vaccine. To the right of the headline, one of the doctors in the "elite" team of researchers looks up at a petri dish.
Daily Mirror
Image captionAnd it's "game over" for sport in the UK, says the Daily Mirror. It lists football, rugby and golf among the sports "crippled by the coronavirus crisis".
Daily Star March 14
Image captionUnder the headline "footie off", the Daily Star warns that "sports fans will have nothing to watch at weekends" because of the coronavirus. In germ-shaped bullet points below, it bemoans that cricket, Formula 1, golf and rugby will be "ditched".

The government's decision to ban mass gatherings is described by the Guardian, the Financial Times and the Daily Telegraph as a "U-turn" by Prime Minister Boris Johnson, just 24 hours after he insisted he would not follow Scotland's lead in doing so.

The Telegraph quotes Whitehall sources admitting the coronavirus situation was now "accelerating very quickly". It says events such as Wimbledon, Glastonbury Festival and the Grand National could be axed, with new laws allowing the government to pay them compensation.

The Financial Times says the policy reversal follows growing pressure for the UK to move further into the "delay" phase of its action plan after other European countries took much tougher measures. For the Guardian, Mr Johnson's "cautious approach" was taken after "the most dramatic day of the crisis so far".

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The Times suggests that police will be able to detain infected people, and schools and nurseries could be forced to stay open, as part of a package of emergency powers to be introduced next week. The paper says councils will be allowed to "lower standards in care homes" to cope with staff shortages, and there will also be measures to speed up cremations and burials.

The Times adds that ministers believe the virus will infect the majority of the population, and the new laws are likely to stay in place for two years.

According to the Daily Mail, hospitals could "stop treating" the most severely ill victims of coronavirus as the outbreak escalates. It says new intensive care guidelines being drawn up could even mean that patients with a "poor prognosis" are "taken off ventilators in favour of those with better survival chances". The Mail says that doctors are already reporting that wards look like "war zones".

"Virus Wipes Out Sport," the Daily Mirror declares, referring to sport being "crippled", fears of big job losses and football clubs being "driven to the wall". The Mirror, the Daily Express and the Daily Star all raise the prospect that the domestic football season might have to be abandoned.

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According to the online Independent, Europe's football authorities are braced for a "total shutdown" until at least September. It quotes a source close to high-level talks dismissing the idea that matches might resume early next month as "ludicrous".

The Sun leads on a story about a newborn baby who it says tested positive for the virus within minutes of being born at a hospital in London. The child's mother had been rushed there with "suspected pneumonia". They are now being treated at separate hospitals. The paper declares the baby the "world's youngest victim".

The Daily Express suggests that a team of scientists at Imperial College London are "on the brink" of developing a vaccine to combat the virus. A scientist tells the paper it has worked "really well" when tested on mice. But the paper adds that even if clinical trials proceed as well as the team hope, a vaccine would not be available for patients for another year.

Elsewhere, there's considerable disquiet about the government's strategy of allowing the country to develop so-called "herd immunity" - when enough people have resistance to make it much harder for a virus to spread.

The Daily Mirror highlights comments made by the UK's chief scientific adviser, Sir Patrick Vallance, that around 60% of the population would need to get Covid-19 for the UK to establish "herd immunity". He also said the illness was likely to become an annual seasonal infection.

In her column in the i, the Spectator's deputy political editor, Katy Balls, says many Tories are "twitchy" about this "high stakes" strategy. "Most people want a chance to stay healthy", an unnamed backbencher is quoted as saying.

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Image captionLaurence Fox

In other news, the Sun is among a number of papers to report that the actors union, Equity, has apologised to actor Laurence Fox and agreed an out-of-court settlement for calling him a "disgrace to our industry". Equity's minority ethnic members' committee had criticised him over comments he made on the BBC's Question Time programme in January.

The actor had argued that the media's treatment of the Duchess of Sussex was not racist, and that it was racist for an audience member to label him "a white privileged male". However, the Guardian says the entire committee has resigned in protest at Equity's apology.

And the Times reports on a growing nuisance in Berlin - a population of thousands of wild boars digging up gardens and cemeteries, and roaming into shops.

They have become so accustomed to urban life that they're now crossing roads at traffic lights, it says. Biologists reckon the boars are unlikely to have worked out the significance of red and green lights, but have probably observed cars stopping there and pedestrians crossing safely. The Times concludes that they have learnt how to "save their bacon".

Mamie Stuart: Sunderland burial for 1919 murder victim.

Mamie Stuart: Sunderland burial for 1919 murder victim

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Image captionMamie Stuart was last heard from at Christmas 1919

A woman whose body was found more than four decades after she went missing in 1919 has finally been buried.

Mamie Stuart's dismembered body was discovered in 1961 in an abandoned lead mine in Wales, 42 years after her family last heard from her.

Last year, her great-niece found out Ms Stuart's remains had been stored in a cupboard in a Cardiff forensic laboratory for almost 60 years.

She has now been laid to rest alongside her parents in Sunderland.

The burial was possible thanks to the efforts of Ms Stuart's great-niece Susie Oldnall and a forensic pathologist she described as an "absolute stalwart".

Bigamous marriage

Ms Stuart was born in Sunderland and left home in her teens to work on the stage as a dancer.

In 1918 she married George Shotton, a Welsh marine engineer, and they set up home at various addresses in Wales.

Her last contact with her family was at Christmas 1919, who reported Ms Stuart, then aged 26, missing.

Her husband was questioned on suspicion of murder but there was not enough evidence to charge him, although it did emerge Shotton had married her bigamously and so he served a prison term for that.

In 1961 bones and jewellery were discovered in an abandoned mineshaft on the Gower peninsula in Wales and were later identified as belonging to Ms Stuart.

By then Shotton had died, but suspicions remained that he had murdered his wife.

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Image captionSusie Oldnall says she "feels much better" knowing that her great aunt has been laid to rest

Mrs Oldnall, whose grandmother was Ms Stuart's sister, described the story as "an exciting thing to tell friends".

"She was a doll, apparently a bit of a one, left home in her teens to go on the stage," she said.

"But she was strong too, I heard something about her being part of a dance troupe which didn't get paid so she took out an injunction.

"Then she got married and went away with him, but they were a close family so when she didn't get in touch they knew something had happened to her.

"It was pretty sensational at the time, there was a big manhunt looking in all parts of the world, then it was a big thing when the body was found, but we thought that was it."

'Not having this'

However, when Mrs Oldnall was approached for a programme on the CBS Reality channel about unsolved murders, she learned Ms Stuart's remains had not been buried but were being stored in the laboratory.

Mrs Oldnall said: "So her story had gone from something finished to this. I'm not religious but I thought it was awful.

"She had this turn in life and was murdered and cut up and put in a cave in the dark for 40 years, then for another 60 she was in a cupboard, brought out every now and then, presumably to show budding pathology students.

"I thought, no, no, I'm not having this."

She got in touch with the laboratory's senior forensic pathologist Dr Stephen Leadbeatter, whom she described as "an absolute stalwart, very supportive".

"He told me that he hadn't known what to do with the remains," she said.

"People were telling him to get rid of them but he said 'I don't like doing that because you never know if a relative will come forward', and of course you don't, but in this case I did."

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Image captionMamie Stuart is now buried alongside her father James (pictured) and mother Jane

It was decided Ms Stuart should be laid to rest with her parents James and Jane.

Unsure where they were buried, Mrs Oldnall contacted Margaret Hedley, a family history researcher based on Wearside, who tracked them down to Bishopwearmouth Cemetery in Sunderland.

Mrs Oldnall obtained a casket from a friend and contacted Dr Leadbeatter to collect the remains.

"But he told me, no he'd come to me," she said.

"And he did, on a Sunday, driving all the way to Uffington [in Oxfordshire].

"He didn't want me to have them hanging around for a long time, so after he drove back and my husband and I set straight off."

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Image captionThe family are now buried in an unmarked grave in Bishopwearmouth Cemetery

The burial took place at Bishopwearmouth Cemetery in December.

"We put the casket in, there were some flowers, we said a few words, and then we drove home, that was it," Mrs Oldnall said.

"It's rather a weird thing. All the records to do with Mamie have been destroyed.

"I think there was a fire in the hotel where a suitcase of hers was found, then the police station with records had been bombed - in the way almost as if her trail had been wiped out.

"She's been treated with such lack of dignity, and now she's with her parents.

"I'm not religious, but I do feel much better about it now."

Coranavirus: Emergency plan for prisons in England and Wales

Coranavirus: Emergency plan for prisons in England and Wales

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The government is drawing up emergency plans to avoid disruption in England's prisons, with unions saying prison officers face "unprecedented" challenges.

Prison staff will be offered bonuses to cover shortages - and staff could be redeployed to cover front-line services.

A number of inmates died during unrest at several Italian prisons last week after visits were suspended.

The Prison Officers Association has compared conditions in England's prisons to those found on cruise ships and the Prison Governors Association has said cases of the virus are inevitable.

BBC News has seen advice issued to prisons, which says inmates who had contact with a known coronavirus patient should be isolated in single accommodation.

The possibility of designating other buildings as prisons to cope with pressures has not been ruled out.

Senior figures do not believe large numbers of prisoners will have to be released to cope with any strain.

There is, however, significant concern about the impact on older prisoners with underlying health issues.

Ministers are thought to have not ruled out releasing vulnerable inmates most at risk, but the instinct in government is that they should serve their sentences.

NBA players are donating money to cover salaries of hourly workers amid suspended season

NBA players are donating money to cover salaries of hourly workers amid suspended season

(L-R) Giannis Antetokounmpo, Zion Williamson and Blake Griffin

(CNN)The suspension of the NBA season due to coronavirus isn't just affecting players and fans, it's having a sizeable impact on the pay of thousands of hourly employees at basketball arenas across the country.

Giannis Antetokounmpo, Zion Williamson and Blake Griffin are just some of the players to publicly announce they're donating thousands of dollars to those employees missing out on pay as the season is indefinitely suspended.
"It's bigger than basketball! And during this tough time I want to help the people that make my life, my family's lives and my teammates lives easier. Me and my family pledge to donate $100,000 to the Fiserv Forum staff. We can get through this together!" tweeted Antetokounmpo, Milwaukee Bucks forward.
    Williamson, a forward for the New Orleans Pelicans, said in a post on Instagram he was paying the salaries of Smoothie King Center employees for the next 30 days.
    "These are the folks who make our games possible, creating the perfect environment for our fans and everyone involved in the organization," Williamson's post read. "This is a small way for me to express my support and appreciation for these wonderful people who have been so great to me and my teammates and hopefully we can all join together to relieve some of the stress and hardship caused by this national health crisis."
    Griffin, a forward for the Detroit Pistons, confirmed on Twitter he's donating $100,000 to staff of Little Caesars Arena.
    The Golden State Warriors announced Friday that the franchise's owners, players and coaches will contribute $1 million to disaster relief fund for Chase Center employees.

    "The men and women who work our games at Chase Center are critical in providing an incredible game-night experience for our fans, including of course, the popcorn vendors," said Warriors guard Stephen Curry. "As players, we wanted to do something, along with our ownership and coaches, to help ease the pain during this time."
    Curry is a well-known popcorn fanatic.
      The players' donations come after Dallas Mavericks owner Mark Cuban announced Wednesday that he had begun to put in place a program to financially support the arena workers.
      "I reached out to the folks at the arena and our folks at the Mavs to find out what it would cost to support, financially support, people who aren't going to be able to come to work," Cuban said. "They get paid by the hour, and this was their source of income. So, we'll do some things there. We may ask them to go do some volunteer work in exchange, but we've already started the process of having a program in place. I don't have any details to give, but it's certainly something that's important to me."

      The actor who was really stabbed on stage

      The actor who was really stabbed on stage

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      When he was cast as Hamlet at age 24, Conor Madden thought his stage career was about to take off - but then an accident during a sword-fighting scene left him with serious injuries. No-one knew whether he would ever act again.

      A piercing silence filled the theatre as Conor lay on the floor of the stage, listening to his surroundings. His body was frozen. He knew he was hurt.

      Despite his youth, Conor had been playing the lead role in a modern production of Shakespeare's Hamlet - a role usually given to established actors a decade older than him. It was a huge honour.

      The cast had already performed the play many times, but they had just moved to a new theatre in a different city.

      Conor remembers the clang of a metal sword falling to the floor beside him, and a fellow actor cradling him and asking, "Are you OK?"

      The 800-strong audience remained still, assuming this was part of the play.

      Then the silence was broken by the hurried footsteps of the company's artistic director walking on stage. He apologised to the audience and said the show must end. There was a round of applause, and the curtain fell.

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      Conor had always wanted to be an actor.

      "Initially I didn't know why I wanted to do it. I just knew that I wanted to do it," he says.

      Most of his relatives worked in manual professions such as building and painting. Conor was the first in the family to pursue a creative career.

      At 15, he got his break in a play that toured Ireland. After that, he studied acting at Trinity College Dublin for three years, constantly developing his skills and gaining connections throughout the industry.

      Conor Madden in his most recent role, in John O'Donovan's FlightsImage copyrightSTE MADDEN
      Image captionConor Madden in his most recent role, in John O'Donovan's Flights

      And then he was offered the most prestigious role he could imagine - Hamlet.

      "It was a great challenge. And I revelled in it and I really looked forward to it.

      "There is this weight of history behind it, the fact that lots and lots of famous actors have played Hamlet throughout the years. It's made and broken careers, and broken actors," he says.

      For five weeks Conor rehearsed and then performed in Dublin.

      "Everything was perfect. I was having an amazing time. Audiences loved it, the rest of the cast loved it, I loved it - it was all great," he says.

      They then moved to the Everyman Palace Theatre in Cork, the Irish Republic's second biggest city.

      Although the same set footprint was used, the stage was slightly smaller. The actors had some time to get used to it, but the final technical rehearsal had to be cut short before the final scene, in which Hamlet is mortally wounded.

      Given the success of their previous performances, the actors confidently made their way on stage, and everything went well until swords were drawn in the play's climactic final moments.

      Conor and another actor found themselves standing closer to each other than usual - too close, it turned out. A rapier struck Conor just below the eye.

      As he fell back "it was like someone had hit slow motion on the video of my life," he says.

      "On the way to the floor, the first thought I had was: 'Uh-oh, something's not right here.' The second thought I had was, 'We are totally, totally alone when we die.'"

      The sword did not go through Conor's skull, but it fractured the orbital bone of his eye, and left him unable to move.

      "I couldn't stand up. I couldn't talk. I couldn't really move. I just kept saying 'Ambulance!'"

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      Conor was immediately taken to hospital but it took some time for doctors to work out what was wrong. After three days he was diagnosed with a traumatic brain injury.

      At first he was under the impression that it was a short-term problem, and that he would be back on stage in about a week.

      But over that first week, Conor's condition deteriorated. Soon he wasn't even able to feed himself, and his father had to care for him.

      "I was 24, very fit, was used to doing everything for myself, and suddenly I'm kind of put in this position... My dad had to shower me, it was really unpleasant for a young man. It felt very emasculating," he says.

      It took him seven months to re-learn how to walk and talk.

      "I remember saying to one of the therapists, 'I was able to walk a month ago, and I'm in a wheelchair now - that means something to me.'

      "It felt really bad. It felt really final, actually. It just felt like, 'Wow, this is my life.'"

      But Conor's determination paid off. Although his brain injury had permanent effects on his speech and mobility, he was able to return to work within a year.

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      Back on the streets of Dublin, though, Conor experienced difficulties moving around. With his limited mobility - including balance and co-ordination problems and permanent double vision - he realised how crowded the city was, and how broken and uneven the footpaths were. Using public transport was extremely difficult.

      So Conor and his wife moved back to his home town, Newmarket on Fergus in County Clare, and he began travelling back to Dublin for work.

      But even acting didn't feel like it had before.

      "There were lots of really stressful jobs, things I didn't enjoy doing, and I didn't know why I didn't enjoy doing them," he says.

      "I wasn't able to explain to anybody what was going on, I didn't know what was going on. I spent three or four years just hoping everything would go back to normal and it didn't."

      Conor later found out that he was experiencing post-traumatic stress.

      He experienced a loss of identity when he was injured, he says, and his abrupt return to work left him unable to process this.

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      Image captionConor Madden (right) with fellow actors on the set of Flights

      "I didn't have time to grieve," he says.

      "You grieve for who you were. I didn't fully realise the gravity of what happened. And it took three or four years to get what it meant."

      Nine years later, Conor is still coming to terms with his injury. It's been "traumatic, literally and figuratively", he says.

      "There are things you do to accommodate it or to make yourself live with it, but there are no positives. I still grieve; I still miss who I was."

      It's his passion for acting that keeps him going.

      "I love telling stories. I love communing with the audience and sharing this kind of bizarre quasi-spiritual experience with each other in a dark room in the middle of Dublin," he says.

      "It's what I trained to do and it's what I want to do. So I do it."

      To accommodate his needs, the theatre company Conor works with allows him to take regular breaks and prints scripts for him in a larger font.

      Conor has played the character of Hamlet since the accident, in a play called The Rehearsal, Playing the Dane. In this adaptation of Shakespeare's tragedy - which he has taken on tour internationally - three actors audition for the role of Hamlet on stage. The decision is made in the interval.

      Conor tells the audience about his accident, but he says they often have a hard time believing the story.

      "None of the audience believes this is true. It's just like this is just an actor talking about how he can't do what he would like to do, rather than this is actually an actor who was stabbed in the face playing Hamlet," he says.

      "I guess it is positive feedback but it's also incredibly hurtful, because it really did happen."

      If there is an upside to having an invisible disability, Conor says, it's that it has made him a more compassionate person.

      "It's made me think a lot deeper and more carefully about other people. It's made me consider, 'People don't see my injury, so maybe I can't see theirs?'" he says. "I don't know what these people are going through."

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      People living with HIV in Wuhan struggle to find medicine during coronavirus outbreak

      People living with HIV in Wuhan struggle to find medicine during coronavirus outbreak

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      HIV patients struggle to get medicine under lockdown 02:58

      Shanghai (CNN)It was 3 a.m. one January morning when Alex Zhang began an hours' long cycle to a Wuhan hospital for emergency supplies of medicine to treat his potentially life-threatening HIV infections.

      The city was in the early stages of a lockdown to slow the spread of the deadly coronavirus that has killed at least 4,600 people worldwide, according to John Hopkins University. Normally he would take a train or a taxi, but now that was impossible.
      Instead, Zhang, 26, went at night and cycled the back routes to avoid police checkpoints. He had a small window in which to get the drug before the lockdown went into full effect.
        Thousands of people like Zhang, living with HIV in Wuhan, and the surrounding Hubei province, are struggling to get the drugs they need, as the lockdown has made it impossible for them to leave their homes and go to hospitals for medicine without special permission.
        Many are reluctant to contact local officials to get their medicine delivered because they are afraid of revealing their HIV status to people in their community. Due to the stigma and discrimination faced by HIV patients in China, CNN has changed the name of Zhang and all interviewees with HIV in this story.
        "For some HIV-infected people, they would rather stop taking the drug than expose their identity and privacy," said Huang Haojie, director at Wuhan LGBT Center.
        Missing doses can have serious, long-term effects for some, he added, as left untreated even briefly the virus can mutate meaning the original medicine is less effective, allowing the virus to grow.
        To prevent this, Huang and his team are risking their own health to pick up HIV medication from Jinyintan Hospital, which is at the center of the coronavirus outbreak in Wuhan, and deliver it across the city.
        Volunteers from the Wuhan LGBT center pick up medicine to be delivered to people living with HIV across the city, unable to obtain it due to the lockdown.

        Living in fear

        An estimated 1.25 million people live with HIV in China, according to government statistics, and there are about 20,000 people living with HIV or AIDS in Hubei province, local experts say.
        Lin Feng, 69, has been living with HIV for five years. The former construction worker retired to Wuhan and now lives alone, relying on a small government subsidy for senior citizens with the disease.
        He said that he was devastated by his diagnosis and originally thought about killing himself. But over time he developed a support network and his children eventually accepted his condition. Most people in Lin's daily life, however, do not know he has the illness.
        People living with HIV in China often face widespread stigma and social isolation. Some have lost their jobs or become estranged from their families after going public.
        Medication is free for patients with no secondary conditions, and whose HIV hasn't progressed to AIDS.
        Every HIV positive individual needs to take one or two doses a day, and people living with HIV in Hubei and neighboring Henan province told CNN that hospitals usually provide three months of medication after an examination.
        As the coronavirus spread, Lin started to run out of medicine. He couldn't leave his apartment and was reluctant to ask community officials to bring him medicine, afraid they would discover his condition.
        "I can't afford to let my community know, what if the word got out? I won't have face to even walk out of the door," he said.
        Eventually he got a volunteer's number from the Center for Disease Control and Prevention in Wuhan, who discreetly delivered the medicine he needed. "I was so excited. I almost cried," he said.
        Lin was one of the lucky ones. He knows other people who have begun to miss doses, because they are unaware of the volunteer delivery service or are socially isolated.
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        Working around the clock

        In the early days of the lockdown, Wuhan LGBT Center director Huang said he received messages from people with HIV living in the city who said their supplies had run out.
        They were either stuck at home or trapped in areas far away from their registered hospital.
        Initially, people had to pick up their medicine from the hospital they were registered at. But on January 26, three days after the lockdown began, China's Center for Disease Control and Prevention issued a notice saying that those with HIV and AIDS were allowed to have their medicine issued at any designated hospital.
        Since then, Huang said he and his team of 22 volunteers have been working lengthy shifts to pick up and deliver the medicine people need.
        "The number of requests we receive every day now is close to 200 people," he said.
        "We take turns to rest and work once every other day, and then basically everyone works nearly 12 hours on that day," he said. "About 10 staff members are in charge of receiving inquiries and calls from various people every day. Our phone receives calls from 9 a.m. to 11 p.m. every day."
        Wuhan's Jinyintan Hospital is the closest option for the volunteers, but it is also one of Wuhan's most well-known hospitals for infectious diseases and has become a hub for treating coronavirus patients.
        The volunteers go to the hospital to pick up the medicine, despite it being packed with infectious coronavirus patients. But Huang said it was necessary work, if it kept people in Wuhan with HIV supplied while avoiding revealing their diagnosis.
        HIV medication donated to Andy Li for him to send to coronavirus patients across China.

        A lifeline

        Andy Li, 30, has been living with HIV for eight years. Unlike Lin and Zhang, he lives in nearby Henan province which has seen fewer cases of the novel coronavirus than Hubei.
        Li hasn't had any problems getting his HIV medication. Instead, he is facing a different problem -- he can't give it away fast enough.
        There is currently no known cure or vaccine for the coronavirus. However on January 26, China's National Health Commission authorized and recommended the use of medication usually intended to treat HIV and AIDS as an effective treatment to fight coronavirus infections.
        In an interview with state media China Daily, American HIV expert David Ho said that although HIV and coronavirus are very different, they both share a protein or enzyme called protease. "We need to have drugs that target the protease of the coronavirus," Ho said.
        Li put out a message on his public Weibo account saying he would donate his medicine to help treat people diagnosed with the virus.
        "By 7 p.m. that day, about eight people added me. Then on the second day, there were more than 20 people ... I sent out more than 30 delivery packages of medicine on the second day," he said.
        Henan province resident Andy Li packages HIV drugs for coronavirus sufferers who can use the medicine to treat their disease.
        Everyone who asked had to provide proof of their condition, Li said. Keen to build momentum, Li contacted other people with HIV and many of them, from all over China, responded to his call, donating their own drugs to help fight the epidemic.
        Many donors were able to afford different, more expensive alternatives to the government's free HIV treatment, leaving their official doses available for donation.
        Li said they posted medicine to 220 people, and donated the remaining 90 doses to hospitals in Wuhan.
        He said he didn't even think about the risks of giving away his medication. "I simply wanted to save people. We knew that there might be risks, but we could only say that if there is a problem, we go and solve it."
          Life appears to be steadily improving for people living with HIV in Wuhan. Alex Zhang has taken up the offer from the Wuhan LGBT Center to deliver his drugs to his door, and is now back on the medication he needs.
          "They saved my life," he said.

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